This is my latest project, and I am completely uninspired by it.
I just polished off the paint job, but I find myself not really interested in photographing it, like I normally do. I don't really know why.
It could be that this was the photo project I was working on in between getting some cosplay props finished (Gandalf staff, Galadriels dagger), and then it was left half-finished when I went on 3 weeks vacation. So maybe it just became the project that felt abandoned, so when I got back to it I had already moved on.
Maybe it was due to this being one of the last statues from my Loot Studios subscription that caught my eye, and I went into this project not super excited to begin with. It was just the thing that was left. To be fair this model never did grab me. There is a reason why it's one of the last ones I printed. While I love a good wraith, and an empty robe always seems to pique my interest, the horse... its well, just fucking weird. For some reason the horse is like a zombie horse, with lots of decayed flesh and exposed bone and muscle, but given two of the legs are no longer attached, so it's also a magical horse for some reason? And whats up with the front leg pressing up against a rock like its kneeling, but sideways? It just feels like the whole thing is trying too hard.
It could just be my depression kicking in. I can feel that demon lurking in the background like the cowardly punk that it is.
Honestly I suspect its all three, but mostly the second one. I started this model because it was the next one on the site. I've done several before this, and this was just what was next, so I mindlessly just started printing it. Normally I go for the thing that grabs me the most, and this just... didn't.
I ended up finishing the paint job, just to get it to some sort of conclusion. But now? Now I think I am going to shelve this, and move on to something else.
Sometimes projects just don't work out. I think sometimes we as artists think of the work we do as being passion, and we have drive, and they feel like they are precious. Truth is, they are not precious. The act of doing the work is important, but the specific work we're doing... not so much. Art is precious, a single project is disposable.
So I am going to dispose of this one. Really, I'm just going to stick it on a shelf and move on to something else. If things change and it catches my eye in the future, then I'll make an image out of it. For now, it's time to move on to the next thing... hopefully something that gives me more passion to complete it than this thing has.
